For years, I had often wondered what it would be like if the two of us ever got the chance to start over again. I wondered what it would be like if we tried to make things work.
All of the things that I thought would happen, didn't happen. Now more than ever, I sometimes wonder why I ever wanted you back. I wonder are you even happy to be back... in our lives, and in my life.
I sometimes feel that you resent me for ever reaching out to you to come back into our lives. I feel that you might have been happier where you were... with them, and with her.
Right now... at this moment... I'm more confused now more than I ever was before!
One minute you're saying that you love me, and that you're so in love with me, saying you will never be with her again...
The next minute you're saying that you need to make sure that you've got her out of your system.
I'm really confused right now... because now... I don't know what you mean. I don't even think you know what you mean.
At times I feel that you must be at the crossroads and yet you have no idea which way you wanna go.
I feel that you're happy to have me back in your life... but I feel that you hate me at times for pushing you out my life.
I told you before that you never fought for me, hell I told you, you never fought for us.
Now here we are in a new day and time... and we just don't know what to do about us.
I don't know if I can trust the things you say to me. I know I want to... but it's sad that I can't. I can't let my guard down, I'm protecting my heart now... I'm loving you real hard now... That it's starting to make me sick.
Wow!
You call me your best friend, but what your actions are saying is that you consider me your enemy at times.
Tell me what's on your mind. Say it to me now... and make me understand!
Show me that you can and still wanna be my man.
This is getting much too hard for me... because I'm wanting you so much right now...
But right now, I feel you gotta breathe.
Prove to me that together we still have a chance because you need to say something to me before that moment comes... when I don't wanna hear nothing from you at all.
